ice ice baby, hold the vanilla

so an ice storm hit north west arkansas.

the good:
2 days off of work
pretty landscape...a photo op just waiting to happen. imagine the icy narnia. pretty magnificent.
the sun shining bright and coming out to finally melt away the icy tundra.

the bad:
no power (still in some places)
slick roads and getting my vehicle stuck in the icy mess on several occasions.
my housemate's car being attacked by half of a tree
falling tree limbs above your head

the ugly:
having to share a bed with my mom (because their electricity was out for days) and getting about an hour sleep because of her unbelievable snoring (which has gotten worse as she has aged) and terrified she's going to stop breathing and die due to her sleep apnea (i don't know how my dad does it).

a picture:

the queen

"yes. i am the queen...

of unrequited love.

i've had an abundance of crushes and have adored, if not loved many men but pretty much always, well actually always, they don't reciprocate.

why? i don't know. you tell me....

one thing i have decided is that when it is reciprocated, it's going to be incredible like a symphony or a spectacular film or even a magnificent sunrise. it will be special because who would want every man you love to always love you back? who would you choose? so exhausting. it would probably be hard to decide how to weed out the bad ones. and you would lose the significance of that one man when he finally comes.

so that's what i'm trying to focus on in light of learning that the man i pretty much love is in love with another. but i can't help wonder...if he only knew, would that change anything?

i love my life."


-quotes from a work in progress based on real life drama....and i too, love my life.

new year

so i haven't written here in a long time.

so much has happened this year...moved BACK to arkansas to work for jbu, my alma mater. i love my job (more about that later)

i also decided to change a few things this year. not so much new year resolutions...don't do them but just change while i can and while i am motivated and while i am risky.

first change. i dyed my hair espresso brown and got bangs. i also got some cute new glasses which i wear occasionally but i still prefer my contacts.

so there will be more to come.

oh, this is the start of something good, don't you agree: